People suck.

if you say you are going to do something, you do it.

if you say you are a friend, then act like it.

Whatever!  I realize I have a handful of good friends and that will never change. I am glad to leave that way I don't have to be surrounded by people that pretend to care about me.

I need to buy a bunch of sage and burn it to ward off all of this bad vodoo!

Saturday my grandma had to be rushed to the hospital because she thought she was having a stroke. Luckily it was a TIA, which from what i've gathered is a mini-stroke. Her tests have come out fine and show no brain damage. I am very worried for her. Today she is going to Mofit hospital (a cancer specialaztion hospital). I am just praying that she will be fine. She has been through a lot these last 2 months.

Still considering quiting at the botique. I had 3 of the rudest people come in. Luckily after the worst one left a lady was in the store who was very nice and funny, and really did make me feel better. Also restored hope that our society has good people in it.

Thankfully Matthew came and got me and I didnt have to spend Saturday alone. Overall it was a horriable horriable day.

But today is Monday and things are looking up  =)  alright have to head t class now.

UGH

I hate work.

people are bithces. I dont get paid enough. Ive decided im quiting!

It is Wednesday night...

TOday I was SOOOO tired all day, it just was dragging by. Well i had a lil time before my night lab and grabbed a smoothie. That is rational, enough to keep me from starving yet not too much where i wont eat dinner.... BUT smart smart me, thought "oh Megan why not get a shot of caffine to help you make it through lab?" SO i did it!!!!! The only problem is it is 2 am and i have to be up very early tomorow and still no sleep. I tried everything: watching boring tv, nice music, drink a beer. Nothing works. i can still feel my heart pounding in my chest. How much pure caffine did they fill that sucker with?!!! you can kill a person with pure caffine ya know.

Im just waiting to be tired.... ladia da....

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ok the next bit is me tired and high on caffine so you can just skip over this no promises on what is to come. forget typing right that is too complicated my fingers want to move faster tahn i can type, so i will let them. ahh. My place is messy that makes me stressed. Matthew and I have a cleaning date this weekened yahoo. we are both pretty pour right now with the start of school maning no hours at work. it hurts more than i was planning. Denise is going to a retreat this weekend and wanted me to go, i really am wishing i could but no i said i would work and no i am regretting that deciosion. So here is a question, you are driving somewhere early in the morning and you see someone you know the car infront of you. Now you know them, have their number and all but aren't really friends. what do you do? i polielty waved as i drove by, her having NO clue that i was there. it is just a wierd thing cause you cant be like hey i followed you this morning... b/c that is just plain creepy!  ok enought about that. next topic.i love ppl. and i aprrectiate planning in school. BUT people who havent been in school for a while and come back are nuts!  THe VERY first day of class they new every assignment and were already preparing for something 2 months away. WHAT! I mean it is 10% of our grade so it is not too small, but really every break they are hougding ppl asking details, me i want to know the bascs, when is it due, and what are the first few steps. not joking some prrlly alreday have it done. how can ppl freak that much? (rach if you are reading this, i want for you to know, the ppl in my class would prolly even freak you out, not jkoing it is that bad!)

OK another thing why are guys ass holes when it comes to girls. they think they are soo smooth. yet they dont understand why someone is happy in a relationship b/c they are nt happy in theirs. And you cant tell your firneds he has a girlfrined b/c he doenst want them to know? i dont think so. SO done with all that.

Speaking of being done. Mathtew and i can not decide on an officail annv. we had origanlly said Nov 5. BUt that seems odd. We 'talked' in early May, Dated in August, and we decide on Nov... now yeah when we dated it was a lil rocky and since nov 5th eveythhing has been great. So lets say we take MAy that means we've been dating for 2 years and 4 months. But if it is Nov it is 1 year and 10 months. not much diffenrce i know. and really does it matter? no not at all. i think it just complexes my brain. so when ppl ask how long we've been dating i just shrug... 

ALright still looking into boston. looking other places as well. Still really struggling witht the facti might have to leave matthew for awhile. and live in a city where i would know nobody and have only been there for 2 days in my whole life. While leaving him here in FL where he moved so we could be togehter. another complexing thing i have goin on.

even more comleing is why im hungry..... ok think im going to try to pass out again. wish me luck. ill need a large coffee tomorow! i think i have a caffine addiction   GOAL: start cutting out all caffine. (besides chocolate).

alrgight love to all.

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OK, if you are reading this than you are probably a good friend of mine, and I have a prayer request. My Grandmother has Breast Cancer. They found a suspicious lump and surgically removed it. The surgery went well, there were clean lines and no satellites. She is recovering great, she is so strong! Today the tests results did confirm it is cancer. Things look good for a bad situation. But they have some options they have to consider, like another surgery, waiting to see, chemo, mastectomy.... and I don't know all of them. Every prayer helps. =)